Ok, I went back over the past few posts and it seems that I hit (unknowingly) a nerve in the community. Certainly not intentional on my part. I am "slowly" proceeding through all the suggestions that have been given to me and it will take some time to internalize fully what has been offered. I can see that many of you are highly knowledgeable. I wish to honor that and it has not slipped by my awareness---the authenticity of the gifts that all of you have been making on my behalf. Please hear me when I say I am committed to bring myself to some level of real functionality and that I am aware it really does come from hard work and applying oneself over and over until it sinks in and can be accessed in a fluid and creative manner. My career is that of a therapist and I see, quite well--this very issue that has gotten under the skin of those trying to help others here on the forum. That is--many clients come in demanding a magical solution and that they will just be given the golden key to success in life. In fact, some have literally demanded it! My position is to work their assumptions, that life is magically easy, to the realization that one can be "eaten" in any moment, and that waking to this fact often produces that crises of identity that is the wound of so many--yet is essential for anything "worthy" to really come forth in life. I wish to gain your respect over time thru application of your suggestions to the point of some real clarity in myself about how the CNC world really works and thus can participate in something that most do not have access to... and in the final stage yields the tools that the creative mind must have. Once again, thank you for your honesty, time and efforts.
Bob Campbell